Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Words of hypocrisy

I gave church a miss today. Woke up at 10am today, despite setting the alarm for 8am. Technically I could still make it for service, which starts at 11am. However, I deliberated and before long, it was already 10.15. So I thought might as well stay home than have to rush and still be late. Haikz!! All the excuses one can think of to justify his cause when he has already decided. I think I am just feeling lazy…

The truth of the matter is: I was already contemplating missing church for soccer the night before. Why did it have to clash?? A big part of me wants to play footie, plus… I need the exercise!! Gasp! Shall elaborate on that later.

My mum asked me where I was going, as usual. And I said soccer. Well I was lying, as u usual. Although this time, it’s not the usual “meeting friend”, “do project”, blah blah… Most of the time when I said soccer, I was indeed kicking. Only I didn’t tell on the post-soccer activity. Surely, this made me feel better.

I recall an incident beginning of the week. It was my sister’s 1st day of school after her 1 week break. And she was late. Dad had to fetch her to school as a result. Apparently Chung Cheng High has this policy of making latecomers do 50 starjumps. Afraid of the punishment, Ruiling asked my dad to lie to the discipline master that he was responsible for her tardiness, being the one who had overslept etc. I was flabbergasted at her suggestion, and responded sternly, “How can you even think of that?? Lying is NEVER an option!!”

Almost immediately I was overcome with shame. How about me then? I guess we always tend to seek the easy way out. XT tells me my mum confirm knows, she’s only waiting for me to come clean with her. Not daring to face the problem, I’m keeping my fingers crossed. But it’s ever so tiring...

Now I’m beginning to wonder which is the easier way out is for me...

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On a happier note, I helped out at St. Luke’s Elder Care Centre’s health screening yesterday. My 1st time “playing” with the spygomanometer and the stethoscope. I feel like a doctor already!! But of course, I was only masquerading. Jiaxi, Ken, KM and his 2 frens, Liping and Liling were the more qualified ones (being medical students), apart from the other already qualified doctors, Ching Kit and Yining and their friend. In the end even pastor tried his hands at the instruments. In any case, I am glad I learnt something. At least I now know how to read the “systolic” and “diastolic”. And I may have gotten myself an internship opportunity. This arose after chatting briefly to another volunteer, who happened to be a HR manager with STATSchipPAC. Hooray!!

After that it was mid-autumn festival celebration at Guilly. I think pictures speak louder than words, so I’ll probably wait till pictures are uploaded before posting them here =P

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Unable to put up with the sluggishness of my desktop as well as my sister’s and mum’s incessant complaints no longer, I finally spent one afternoon formatting it. Took a while coz the itchy-finger me went to tweak some settings. And in the end I couldn’t set up my connection. Exasperated, I called the SingNet helpdesk, got past a series of recorded instructions before I was finally able to communicate my concerns with a technical officer. After speaking to him, I realised my folly: I had keyed in the wrong password. This despite insisting adamantly that I had the correct password from the onset. How stupid can I be??

After that I went for a run. Oh! And I managed to catch a recording of 射雕英雄传 today. 郭靖 is my favourite 金庸 hero!! Why did they have to name it Legend of the Arching Heroes?? I’d prefer Condor anytime. And i think i still preferred the 83' TVB version. I remember being mesmerized by the Guo Jing character played by Felix Wong when i was young. Such chilvary!!

Sunday, September 11, 2005

我真的受伤了

Woke up late (or rather woke up, snoozed the alarm and went back to sleep again!) so didn't go and play soccer this morning. Anyway my left shoulder is hurting again. Dad asked me to go for an X-ray.

Have been wanting to remember this lyrics for sometime, since the 1st time i heard Weilian perform it on 绝对superstar. Well, was reminded after reading an email, so here's grabbing this chance b4 church to quickly put it down b4 i forget again. Haha. I am flabbergasted with my how "short-term" my memory is.

Remembering names is becoming more and more of a challenge. There was a new kid at the swimming session yesterday, her name is Rongying yet i couldn't recall her name just moments after another volunteer recited it to me.

This is bad. But i am sure TS is worse cuz he still forgot after JQ repeated it to him 4 times!!

Come to think of it, i was listening to this song on my mp3 player only yesterday as well.

窗外阴天了 音乐低声了 
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了 音乐低声了 
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了 
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了 
是你变了 是你变了
灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了 
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐 
我的心真的受伤了

Oops.. i'd better rush for church. Got projection duty. I'm beginning to loathe lying to mum abt meeting friends, doing projects etc already. Praying that this will stop sooner than later.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

A quick one...

Gosh! I remembered wrongly the timing for my subject pool today. Thank heavens i got the date correct at least. It was supposed to be from 3-4pm, but i had actually marked down 2-3pm on my little diary. Hence this breather to quickly type this entry.

Played a tiring game of soccer on Sunday. My first game after a month long hiatus. As it is, my mum forbids me to play the beautiful game during the lunar 7th mth. She claims its the only time when those "kids" come out to play, and no matter how i try to convince her that RI is a holy place, it all fell on deaf ears. That's my mum for you -- supertitious!! But well. i can't blame her, can i?? After all, i did break a leg while kicking the ball in Sec 2, and its my safety she's concerned with.

My whole body is still aching from then. And yes.. i am in desperate need of exercise!!

Arrgghhh!! Winston!!!!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Que Sera Sera

Yesterday marked a light-hearted end to a horrendous week. Study week i mean. I'm surprised at how the days seem to pass u by without u realising. I remember worrying abt the impending week only moments ago. Labs to do. Projects to start. Deadlines to meet.

*phew*

I am still alive and kicking. Even as Katrina swept the gulf coast in midweek. I think i should be thankful. Do not worry abt tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry abt itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 7:34)

Everyone worries aye. About things that are happening as well as those that might happen or maybe not.

Glad that the dialogue session went rather well. I must say i was very impressed with the agenda prepared by Nim. Although this dialogue was very much a by-product of an unpleasant event, it's probably better that things turned out the way they have. Pple were able to voice out their concerns, and at the end of the day a mutual understanding was achieved... i hope.

In fact, i believe everyone present that night felt good abt the session. Diplomatically at least, it goes to show how much WE care... haha =P (p.s Although i was "dragged" along, and was not in a position to comment much, neither did i feel exceptionally passionate abt things.)

All's well ends well.